I have my own share of heartbreaks and pains from unrequited love. This sounds silly but painful. Yes, the pain was so real. It was excruciating as if my heart was hammered and turned into powder (haha) leaving me no idea on how to fix the powdered pieces together. I felt like I couldn't continue living without him. I told myself many times that I should stop desiring him but the more I control myself, the more I want him. Sounds insane huh? Well, that's what I felt that time.
I have struggled too much about that deceitful feeling and believed in my own fictitious lie that he loves me too; where in fact, he has a girlfriend. He was always in my mind. There were times when I wanted to scrape my head with a knife just to remove him in my system. I didn't want that feeling to linger because it is wrong and it is killing me. I wanted to move on with my life and forget him but I did not tell the LORD JESUS about that desire. Every time I pray I just prayed my usual prayer in the morning and in the evening. I didn't pray much for that person but I only told the Lord that, "Your will be done, LORD". Getting over him was my problem but I did not ask the Lord to help me with it.
I thought I can handle it on my own because I was still able to live my life normally. I still went to work and hang out with friends. But the emptiness and loneliness in me were unbearable. I felt like I am drowning and I needed help. Until one night I prayed to the LORD crying. I told Him, ‘LORD I cannot bear this anymore. Please help me'; and then in an instant, I felt that all my thoughts and feelings for that man were gone. Oh, what a remarkable night that was. I was so happy. The LORD didn't make me wait for a long time; He answered my prayer right away. It was a victorious night. This verse found in Psalm 147:3 He heals the brokenhearted and bandages their wounds is very true. Only JESUS can heal your broken heart because that is His promise and HE doesn’t lie.
Also, whenever we are tired and burdened the LORD promised us that He will give us rest. Whenever you are tired remind yourself of this verse Matthew 11:28-30 “Come to me, all of you who are tired from carrying heavy loads and I will give you rest. Take my yoke and put it on you, and learn from me, because I am gentle and humble in spirit; and you will find rest. For the yoke I will give you is easy, and the load I will put on you is light”. When you lose hope and feel like giving up meditate on this verse Psalm 34:18, The LORD is near to those who are discouraged; he saves those who have lost all hope. Hold on to this verse it will lift your spirit up and inspire you.
From my experience, I learned that the LORD wanted to help me but I didn’t pray and I was praying the wrong prayer. So it is important that when you have a desire, a plan or a problem that you want to be solved, you should tell the LORD JESUS and ask exactly what kind of help do you want from Him. Always consult the LORD about your plans and desire so you will know what to do. Ask guidance and seek help from JESUS. He is a loving and sweet GOD. He will never leave us as orphans.
Offer your broken heart to JESUS and ask Him to mend it. He will surely do it because HE cares for you. Check this verse, 1 Peter 5:7 Leave all your worries with Him because he cares for you. Also, when you pray you should be honest with JESUS. Tell Him how you feel and ask Him what you wanted Him to do. What I mean is pray the right prayer with the right motives. Spend time knowing JESUS more so that your prayers will be aligned with His will. Talk to Him in prayer and read your Bible. God bless. I love you with the love of the LORD.
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